Explanations For Recent Events

I realized that I did not explain about how I will be posting, aha..

Well, in the future, I will not (with rare times I will) be posting on the weekends, as I need that time for relaxing, and having to post every day--though quick--adds up to be quite taxing for me. It may be a lame excuse, but I do have a life, after all.
I've been having some family conflicts which are getting tougher and tougher to bear, yet it's close to impossible to avoid them because I do live with my immediate family (siblings and parents).

On a lighter note, however...

Oh!

So, um, by the way, I talked to Mr. Taurus about my worries/paranoia, and he--rather than telling me it was stupid to be paranoid or dismiss it--listened to what I had to say and reassured me and told me that it was okay to be worried. Ahhh, he's so sweet, I feel like I don't deserve him sometimes...
I also noticed that today he talked to me during our passing period (it was supposed to be about how his bike sucks and why it does because he was going to explain, but it was mostly us talking about random things aha).

Update From The Weekend: Part 2

I forgot to mention something.
Remember how I dated the other Virgo before? The one who was my first relationship? Well, he's made yet another appearance (he tends to come back all the time, anywhere from one week to one month away). He usually does this when he's feeling down or lonely or if he's in a really bad situation, but he's showing signs of jealousy towards Mr. Taurus (Mr. Virgo over here still sees me as his--in a way). This is not ideal at all.

Update From The Weekend

So, I went to a dance that Mr. Taurus invited me to on Saturday. It was rather nice; I had a lot of fun dancing with him...in fact, we slow danced several times. He seemed to be really comfortable in that setting, despite it being a little crowded, and stuck with me and one of our mutual friends the entire time. I still am not a great dancer, but it's alright, considering that my dance partner isn't really, either, haha.
I also met his parents that night, which was pleasant. They seemed to like me despite quite a bit of sarcasm going back and forth Mr. Taurus and I.
I'd certainly love to do it again!

Stuff On Mind//

Well, it's come to my attention that, now, since I am dating Mr. Taurus (yay!), he seems to be just a tad bit more open with his emotions. However, what discourages me is his refusal of any PDA (public display of affection).
Just the other day, I asked him if I could kiss his cheek, but he refused. Though, I was able to rest my head on his shoulder, so I suppose that's some sort of progress.

Difficulties

I feel so frustrated as of late..

Remember how I mentioned I have close friend that is a Pisces? Well...she is very outgoing--quite unlike me...Well, she has been trying to get me to talk to Mr. Taurus more, but the thing is, I don't really like it when she does because as soon as she puts us together, she'll go right in-between us and talk and talk and talk and I don't like competing to speak, so I just don't. I have tried to tell her that I dislike this, but she just tells me she talks because neither of us do. We do try to talk, we just don't have the chance because she just drones on and on :c
I've been thinking of talking to Mr. Taurus about this, since he is very understanding of my train of thought, but I feel like it's not fair to my Pisces friend since she's just trying to help, I guess...

Updates~

In all honesty, I feel like I'm on cloud 9!

Things are going well with Mr. Taurus, though no relationship yet (but still very good progress). He's starting to be more aloof, though...I mean, he does want to talk and texts back just as quickly, but in person he's more quiet and I, as a worrier, feel like I'm doing something wrong, or--perhaps--he is starting to like me more and is getting nervous (he is like that as a person and was afraid to like me more than he does because he didn't want our relationship to suffer as he would have difficulty with mussing up courage to talk to me).

So..

I was just reading the Horoscope.com love horoscope for Virgo since I do find reading the different ones interesting, but today's made me want to giggle:
The planetary alignment enlivens your outlook, and brings a feeling of optimism regarding your latest romantic endeavors. There is certainly nothing ordinary about the events of today, or the people you are likely to meet. You may find one person in particular not only devastatingly attractive, but also of a sound, original, and witty mind, which for you, is like a red cloak to a bull.
Well, I don't know, it just made me think of Mr. Taurus who I do find *exaggeratedly* absolutely devastatingly handsome and does also have a particular sense of humor and thinking and is completely and utterly 'swoon-worthy'. If he ever does see this, well....

My bad.

But it isn't like he doesn't know already--in fact, he seems to seem more self-confident around me, which is nice, including the special treatment. I don't usually like so much attention from someone, but this is a little more subtle and private so it's rather sweet, I suppose.

Musings

I must admit that I'm glad Mr. Taurus is very patient with my worrisome and excitable nature...In the past two weeks I've asked him about our relationship (still not dating, however, he would like to. I don't think he's completely sure quite yet) just about twenty times, haha!
As for giving him practically all of my affections, he admitted that he loves it, so there is that. I have noticed that he likes to show off quite a bit and does say things to claim me (as in, "you're mine") but gets a bit embarrassed after the fact. In fact, practically anything pertaining to romance and affection makes him a bit nervous, so I try not to shower him in affection as much in public or at least ask him first so he won't die from said nervousness (from which he appreciates the gesture).

Ahh...

...tfw Mr. Taurus is giving you mixed signals--

Goodness, I'd love to be more forward, but I've just retired to taking things slowly since he doesn't like the idea of relationships at an early age :C

Worries...?

I've currently been in a downwards slump since Friday. As I am a chronic worrier, I haven't received a text back from Mr. Taurus since then, so hopefully he's alright. I think he's just busy or taking a thinking break or something....

I hope I didn't come off as overbearing--I just get enthusiastic with talking to others, I suppose.

And Yet Again...

When a Virgo feels heartbroken, they tend to withdrawal their cheery outgoing nature revealed and hide back in their shell. At this time, they may seem cold and detached, and won't be much of a conversationalist. Fragile Virgo, especially when deep in the ideals of love, won't be able to cope well with the fact that their feelings aren't returned, and will blame themselves. In this bout of frustration, they tend to be over-critical with themselves.

Source: Being rejected yet again.

Patiently Anxious

Currently, I'm waiting for a text back from Mr. Taurus (he won't be able to see it until later, though)...Being a mostly organized person, I would like to keep my feelings "in check" and certainly make sure that if I am feeling this way for someone, that they feel the same.
Hopefully, we'd still be friends either way...I'd very much miss talking to him if things become awkward...
Oh dear, now I'm having second thoughts...

For now, I'll retire to listening to music while doing an assignment.

My Views

Due to the fact that I've mustered courage to talk to Mr. Taurus, I thought I'd do a proper entry for My Views.

Taurus:
In particular, this male Taurus is rather gentle and trusting. He is, with no doubt, intelligent and a rather great conversational partner. In his own way, he's charming. Independent in thought, yet readily available when it comes to sharing and exchanging ideas. He has a lower self-esteem, and broods, but talking to him lightens his mood quite a bit. As he is shy, the signs he sends to show his interest in a conversational partner are subtle--I almost missed quite a few, haha. Mr. Taurus is also very patient with me. I can be a rather chatty Virgo, yet, even with as many times I switch subjects, he follows along with ease and contributes. He is a very good listener and seems to pick up conversations if they start to fall short. It isn't very hard to fall in love with him more because he is such an interesting, complex, and charming person.

I'm Feeling Rather Proud

Well, I guess correctly. Mr. Taurus is, in fact, a Taurus!!

Anyway, time to continue talking to him c: