I'm Not Sure What To Think...

Alrighty, so I was skimming through some other horoscope websites and I happened upon something that is equally intriguing and possibly true.

What To Do, What To Do..?

I've been thinking again, with the whole mess of things which are occurring right now. In the very least, I'm frustrated and scared. I'm not really one to trust others with my emotions, after all...

Incredulous--

Mr. Cancer and I have been talking quite a bit more and even video chatting until late. I'm still wondering how he really feels about me, though, but I'm sure he likes me at least a little bit, aha. Despite this, we were talking last night before he had to leave for practice at the OTC and he mentioned wearing sweatpants again (he tends to wear these, I noticed), but I ran into him this morning in what I vaguely remember as a navy button-up...something I mentioned to him as well-fitting.

I'm somewhat hoping that who I ran into was actually Mr. Cancer, but I won't admit it to him, haha. I mean, a well-dressed man isn't something I'd argue about, after all--

*Quiet Screaming*

Surprisingly enough....

It seems that even though this past two weeks have been possibly the worst of the entire year, he's actually stayed consistent and stuck with me, though I'm not really sure what he sees in me, aha.

Hopefully this isn't just me overthinking like usual, but maybe my hunch was right about him. It's possible that he does actually feel the same about me...

I sure hope so--

*Gasp!*

So, just yesterday a mutual friend between Mr. C and I was talking to me during class. Well, she mentioned talking to him about my relationship with him and then commented on how he said he didn't feel the same and how he was into someone else. Just before that she mentioned him bringing me up in a conversation asking her why she didn't want us together, so naturally, this sparked my interest--though I have to admit hearing her say that he didn't feel the same (despite his encouragement and support and overall affection towards me)hurt quite a bit and several tears were shed.

Well, continuing, once I was back at home, I made it a point to ask him about how he felt about me, and not to my surprise, he asked about why I was asking that (which I proceeded to explain) all the while essentially proving that our friend wasn't telling the truth to me.

I sincerely hope she isn't trying to stop us from being together, because it simply feels like this could really be something...hopefully it isn't just a hunch, though time will surely tell.

Something Else That Happened

Well, I was texting Mr. C the other day, and I noticed that he was encouraging me to talk to the guy that I like (as I told him I liked someone but was too nervous) and suggested that he might just be "looking" for someone to possibly be with. Of course, this raised a couple red flags, and being who I am I panicked.

After what felt like two hours while waiting for his reply, he simply stated that he knew I had a crush on him.

I'm still a little curious about why he was waiting for me to confess it was him upfront, as if he didn't mention knowing, then I would have never said who it was aha. I was actually just about to give up on him considering his popularity with some other girls (such as at homecoming OTL).

Anyway, maybe this is a good sign to continue on with this relationship perusing, ahaha

About Saturday

So, this past Saturday was homecoming for my school...I have to say it was my favorite one so far, aha.

Any way, besides the almost assured death due to a friend's driving and getting trapped in a rather large group of grinding young adults...it was pretty good. I also should point out that the same friend gave Mr. C a ride too, which was pleasant.

As for the dance itself, I'll try to keep it short when saying that I received a lot of good signals from him including him striking up a conversation with me or dancing with me (though I have to admit I can't dance ahaha). Another thing worth mentioning is that he texted me as soon as I was dropped off and we talked until midnight and yesterday (Sunday) and also this morning he texted me as soon as he woke up.

We talked quite a bit about who I'm crushing on since he did ask, but the way he replied led me to think that he's already aware of my crush--which, for me would be utterly embarrassing....am I that easy to read? But at the same time I feel that he might, too, be oblivious. We'll have to see how it turns out, I suppose.

So, despite the obvious signs, I don't know if he really does or doesn't like me...call me oblivious or perhaps insecure, but I usually need quite a bit more solid 'proof' that he does like me.

Confusion

I've been thinking for a while now, almost a week.

Of course, I've been hesitant to get back into dating after what has been happening with recent events.

I talked to some close friends for advice, as I know that I'm not too practiced in dating still and am clueless when it comes to dating first hand (though my advice is substantial), and she told me to talk to him more--though I'm not too sure if I'm ready for that yet, if that makes any sense.

I'm also a bit wary as I still don't know if he is dating someone despite his subtle flirting and giving me noticeably more attention when we're in the same room (we aren't close friends so we don't usually talk but now we do often).

Worst case scenario: He's dating someone and I'm being over analytical about his actions which means he's simply being friendly.

Best case scenario: He isn't dating anyone and these little things I'm noticing are--in fact--signs that he's interested.

I'll update again on this matter either Friday or Monday!

Have a good day~!

Take 2

Well, now considering that Mr. Leo is actually a Mr. Cancer, now something that has happened the other day makes more sense aha.

Regardless, it still stands that he's rather outgoing and rather boisterous. Though, if I think about it, he is on the Cancer-Leo cusp...

Anyway, in my bout of observing him yesterday (as, I'm still trying to figure out if he is interested), he had accidentally elbowed the back of my shoulder (rather hard, if I must say). Of course, I joked about it, saying that it hurt (which it did), and he immediately began to apologize in a soft voice. Granted, I rarely see him apologize or use a softer tone, but perhaps this is just me.

I've also noticed that he'd ask me every day how my shooting went for a match or practice, and if I had a particularly bad day, he'd offer a bit of consolation. It's somewhat shocking that he can be so 'in-your-face' one minute and sweet the next, but who am I to complain? I am the same way, after all.

So, maybe this will work out, maybe it won't....but, perhaps it could and that's what matters.

I Know I Shouldn't

....but I really miss Mr. Virgo...

He's currently mad at me again and I'm not sure why but he's been very intent on ignoring me...but at least he isn't going out of his way to ignore me, I suppose...

I don't know what to do

Guess Who's Back!

Well, following the utter disaster that is my life right now, I've finally managed to crawl my way back to blogging. Excuse my attitude, I don't usually let it show so much, however I'm rather stressed and am in desperate need of writing as an escape, aha.

Actually

..scratch that last post out.

I'll be completely fine. I don't need to mope because I was rejected by a really awesome person. If I'm going to be "friendzoned", might as well make the best of it and be really damn good friends with him!! Anyway, I'd miss talking to him.

Accepting Any Questions!

Feel free to drop off a comment about relationships or what-not! Responses will be at least a paragraph, as I do not have much free time otherwise!

My Views

Due to the fact that I've mustered courage to talk to Mr. Taurus, I thought I'd do a proper entry for My Views.

Taurus:
In particular, this male Taurus is rather gentle and trusting. He is, with no doubt, intelligent and a rather great conversational partner. In his own way, he's charming. Independent in thought, yet readily available when it comes to sharing and exchanging ideas. He has a lower self-esteem, and broods, but talking to him lightens his mood quite a bit. As he is shy, the signs he sends to show his interest in a conversational partner are subtle--I almost missed quite a few, haha. Mr. Taurus is also very patient with me. I can be a rather chatty Virgo, yet, even with as many times I switch subjects, he follows along with ease and contributes. He is a very good listener and seems to pick up conversations if they start to fall short. It isn't very hard to fall in love with him more because he is such an interesting, complex, and charming person.

I'm Feeling Rather Proud

Well, I guess correctly. Mr. Taurus is, in fact, a Taurus!!

Anyway, time to continue talking to him c:

My Views:

Scorpio:
This is an update on a friend of mine who I just learned is a Scorpio, aha...Anyway, she's a rather cheerful person and I enjoy her company very much! As a Virgo, I find that it's easy to converse and understand her despite some stark differences. In my eyes, Scorpios can be very reliable though reserved in their feelings. I have to say that I've picked up some low-key feelings from her...but as the shy Virgo that I am, I can't quite tell my stance on the subject. *sigh* On another plus, Scorpios aren't so black-and-white as they can seem. It's mostly indecisiveness/a more impulsive nature mixed with an adamant personality (which isn't quite an idealistic state, for me, aha, I prefer quiet stubbornness).

Taurus:
Alrighty, so, in a course of a few months, I've bumped into several Tauruses, two of which are impacting me most at the time. One is a female. She's headstrong, and doesn't take no for an answer--yet in a more...brutal...way. In no way do I agree with her for the most part, but, again, with my own shy nature, it's rather difficult to speak my mind. She's intimidating and that scares me. Moving on, the other is a male (though I'm not sure if he is a Taurus, his personality seems to be that of one, so I'll categorize him as one for now). Embarrassingly, I showed I was interested in him. He seems to be an observer, and stern. What is so difficult is my inability to read his emotions, however. I do catch on details rather well, but not only has he been sending mixed signals, he also has seemed to try to get closer to me, but also shys away just as fast. It's frustrating, but I don't mind too much. He's a leader, who takes matters into his own hands to ensure that a group goes where they need to or does what is required, and is satisfied with that. He isn't, however, controlling, as there is a difference between leadership and dominance.

My Views:

Pisces:
I know two Pisces, and they are absolutely fantastic. One is an incredible artist and singer [from what friends tell me], and she's awkward and really fun to be around. She's like a sister to me, even if we aren't extremely close to "best friends". The other is also a girl, and she's really cool. She has a knack for singing and playing guitar [she brings her acoustic to school every day], and she technically is like a sister [we're really close and talk about a bunch of stuff--we also look the part, haha]. Anyway, my point is that Pisces, although Virgos are "not supposed to" get along with them, are surely sociable people who are truly great friends and "lovers".

Virgo [updated]:
I confess that this one is because of my boyfriend [the last one was based on Dean]. Anyway, I found out how picky other Virgos can be, though it isn't all that bad. I also realized that Virgos really do take people's [who they are close] opinions dear to heart. Virgo guys are really sweet [and I actually know more than just two], and they're super thoughtful and can be caring if you give them a chance. In addition to this, Virgo guys are the type to be loyal to their girlfriends [I asked some friends about their relationships--which I have to say I'm pretty lucky to know a handful of gals dating Virgos], and they put thought into what they do for them.

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